“But what are we really guilty of?—the blood memory of what / we can’t forgive ourselves for.”— M. L. Smoker, from “Equilibrium,” New Poets of Native Nations
“I want something else. I’m not even sure what to call it anymore except I know it feels roomy and it’s drenched in sunlight and it’s weightless and I know it’s not cheap. Probably not even real.”— Mark Z. Danielweski, House of Leaves
“Once we love ourselves, people no longer look good to us unless they are good for us.”— David Richo, How to Be an Adult in Relationships: The Five Keys to Mindful Loving
Ask yourself why you do what you do. Why do you react that way…? Why do you withdraw or want to fight or throw yourself into anything else when faced with stress? Why do you feel the desire to fall back on behaviors & patterns you want to move from when you’re met with a certain situation? You can identify the root, but then you have to pull it. You can get caught up in trying to identify and find the source of your suffering and think when you’ve found it you’re done. Once you find the source & put your attention on it, it begins to dissipate. When you sit with it and work to understand what it’s trying to teach you it dissolves even more. This isn’t a one time process, you can return again and again to the same root source before it’s been dissolved and released. So be patient but continue to examine your actions & speech for self-understanding.
“Stop thinking your way through life, always trying to work it out before living it. Life is to be lived, not analyzed to death. Feel.”
Reblog to have something good happen at 1:42 tomorrow
Reblogged from phalasophy
you have this idea in your head that the only time you’re worthy of being loved is when you’re at your best. you’re still worthy of being loved when you’re at your lowest. you’re still worthy of being loved when you don’t want to go on anymore. you are still worthy of being loved even when you don’t love yourself. you are a human and therefore always worthy of being loved and don’t you fool yourself into thinking otherwise.
“Be gentle. Fill yourself up with love instead of hate. Fill yourself up with art, books, knowledge, experiences. Surround yourself with people who have nothing but love to give. These things are important. They will help you learn how to love.”— (via theglasschild)
“I consider how you don’t get to choose whom you’re attracted to, you only get to wonder about it retrospectively.”
- David Mitchell, The Bone Clocks
it’s so disturbing to think back and realize the stuff you allowed people to do to you simply because you didn’t respect yourself enough to not let it happen